I hate this family sometimes.

So, Mo's mother planned another family triple date and didn't invite us. This happens all the time. It was with Mo's mom and stepdad, St. Betty the Bitch and Twinky Boy (her husband), and Mo's brother and his new girlfriend. They all went to see Iron Man 2 and didn't mention a word to Mo. I was actually sitting in the room when they were planning it and I was not invited. When Mo asked her mother why nobody invited us, Mo's mother said "Well, it's like a date thing, with Will and his new girlfriend." As if that's an answer. This leads me to ask the following questions:

1. Because it was a date between couples, are Mo and I not considered a legitimate couple? (nevermind that we've been together a year and a half, and Will has maybe been with this girl a month)

2. Though her family says they accept us and our relationship, are they, in fact, embarassed by their daughter and her lesbian girlfriend?

3. Are we the black secret of the family that they want to keep hidden from Will's new girlfriend? Do they think we'll scare her off?

I honestly don't feel like going out to a movie with St. Betty the Bitch and Twinky Boy, or Mo's mother and stepdad, but the fact is that it hurts Mo every time it happens. And I do not like it.

When I posed the above questions to Mo, she brushed it off and said the reason for her family's disgusting behavior was more likely something that didn't seem very likely to me at all. I honestly wonder if the above possibilities are just too hurtful for Mo to think about.

Once again, I feel the urge to confront the assholes, but I know that even saying something small like, "It really hurt my feelings that I was sitting three feet away, and Mo and I weren't even invited," would be a "outburst" in this stupid household.

But what I really want to ask is, "Are you all ashamed of Mo and I? Do you deliberately leave us out because you are embarassed by us? What is it exactly that embarasses you?" However, this would also be deemed an "outburst" and "disruptive."

I'm glad I'm getting out of this emotionally fucktarded situation. I understand that my family situation is also negative emotionally, but at least everybody there is honest about their feelings instead of pulling passive agressive shit that hurts people. At least there, when somebody hurts your feelings, it's because they've said something, and you have the opportunity to defend yourself because they've opened it up for discussion.

What's funny is that Mo's mom said a few nights ago that she was worried about our sanity in my parents' house. Does she call ignoring her feelings because they just might be negative "sanity?"

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Well, looks like it's every four days... problem is, I don't have very much to say recently. I've just been vegging. Extensively. And stressing about my stupid car. I may have to hit up family members for the money to fix it, or money to move, because my car is likely to drain all that I have saved up for the move, and I can't move without the thing.

Mo and I have been reading to one another. It's fun. We're reading a book called Sabriel. It's a young adult book about necromancers, and it's very entertaining. Plus, it doesn't have the stupid teenaged romance crap like Twilight. Hate that shit. I've also been reading Mo's notebooks, journals that she kept a time ago and recently. It's been very interesting, and I'm enjoying the chance to know her more.

I reconnected with a very old friend on facebook, and we've been talking. She was my greatest friend through the worst part of my life, and I loved her. So it's been nice chatting again. We haven't spoken for 10 years.

That's what's going on.